Which, ironically, is why I'm starting this in the first place. I'm a mom to be with some serious ADD... and, at 20 weeks pregnant, any medications aren't an option. But ADD is literally ruining my marriage, and I am not going to let that happen. Fortunately, my husband is in the medical field and finally realizes that I'm not just a total wife-failure... part of it is beyond my control.
Like, I sit at work at 5am every day and make a detailed to-do list. Do you think I have the first clue where that list is by 2pm? Not. A. Chance.
It just doesn't even occur to me to, say, drop in and get our burnt out modem replaced on the way home, even though it's in the passenger seat. And should I put those dishes away? Sure, but honestly? I don't even see them. All I see is the windows with nose prints on them from my doggies...
Ultimately, I'm setting myself up to be a huge failure of a mom too, if I can't make this work. So I'm hoping this is a place where I can talk about just how difficult things are sometimes. And a place where I can be held accountable (if anyone ever decides to read, especially! you can yell at me :D)... and really, there's a lot of stuff I feel like an idiot saying out loud, that's not even related to my ADD tendencies, but that I really could use an outlet for.
For example... my husband really is probably tired of hearing about how I wanna be a hot mom. And I'm not going to "love my stretch marks (or saggy boobs) because they're from my baby." Or how I will NOT be gaining 50+ lbs, because it's not only not healthy, but... eww. Yes, my friends, I am one of *those* vain pain in the butt moms. But I'm not going to apologize for that because it's who I am. And since those seem to be rare in the blogging world (or maybe I'm just looking the wrong place?), I hope that some of you pop up here, and I can have some friends online, if not in my middle of nowhere town here :)
Anyway, sure to post more later, but just wanted to get a quick hello in before I get started on dinner (and, um, those dishes...)
